Monday, March 20, 2017

Life, Goals, and My New Adventure

Greetings souls! 

Since a lot of life has taken place since I last wrote, I'll take a second and catch ya'll up on the key points:
I started a new job, 
got the daith piercing which has helped with my anxiety immensely (and only slightly hurt like a mofo) and I highly recommend it to anyone who deals with moderate to sever anxiety,

Daith piercing for anxiety 


 I've continued to work for Sweet Pea's Dream Makers doing princess parties and charity events and got to debut the costume for Elena of Avalor,


Aurora, Rapunzel, Ariel (Mermaid), Ariel (princess), Elena of Avalor, Elsa, and Belle

since GG was literally about to kill me, I bought a pretty new car I affectionately call Coconut, 
and I am going to go back to school this fall. 


At the start of the year, I was torn between staying in Montana and moving back to Utah. I wanted to go back to Utah to be with my friends (I can't even express how much I miss them), and rekindle things with my Airman, but I knew if I did, school would continue to be put on hold. I wouldn't be able to afford out of state tuition and it would be at least a year before I could become a Utah resident, and my scholarship opportunities there would be limited.

 A month ago a friend on Facebook posted a picture of his daughter and had a proud papa moment where he bragged that she was turning 16 and starting college this fall. He posted that he was proud of the beautiful person she had become and how she wanted to help others and change the world. In that moment I saw so much of who I was before the rape in her eyes. I had become so focused on healing myself that I began to lose sight of the force that always propelled me forward: the desire to help others and to change the world. Yes, I needed to take time for myself to heal, and by doing Miss Montana I still tried to reach out to and help others, but now it's time to take the next step and finish school and become a Marriage and Family Therapist with an emphasis in Post Traumatic Stress Disorder so that I can save both families and individuals through my education and personal experience. I've barely begun to apply and one school in particular has already awarded me enough in scholarships that I won't have to worry about tuition for the next two semesters. A couple posts back I wrote that I was waiting for God to direct me to my next adventure; I think this is it, and man does it feel good to finally have direction again.